Sunday, February 8, 2009

The cancer antidote

My mom’s body is beginning to feel the heavy tax chemotherapy charges. The main side effects are super fatigue and deep body aching. To a lesser degree she also experiences brain fuzziness, shot phobia, and general apprehension about the future.

The good news is that she has found a miracle drug that seems to take the edge off of every imaginable symptom. It’s called my dad.

He’s been an amazing helper to my mom since the moment she discovered she had cancer. He has tended to her diligently and lovingly, like a man who’s only purpose in this world is to heal the woman he loves.

While trying to sleep a few nights ago my mom felt such pain in her legs that all she could do was writhe and moan. My dad began to massage her legs to ease the pain and sing to her to soothe her soul. If you’ve ever heard my dad sing, you know this gesture was done more out of love than talent. And it worked. The pain didn’t disappear, but my mom’s spirit was restored.

I do a lot of reflecting on life to try to make sure I don’t miss any big lessons or messages I’m meant to understand. As I try to interpret my mom’s illness, I keep wondering if one of the messages she’ll uncover is that she is worthy of being loved this profoundly.

Striking someone down with a life threatening illness might not seem like the most logical way to teach someone of her worth, but it sure has allowed for some great opportunities for my mom’s friends and family to show her love in new ways. My mom has given so much of herself throughout her life. Now it’s time for her to receive.


k&k said...

Your uncle Ken and I have been reading your blog faithfully. (Ty told us about it). You are a wonderful writer - Today's work brought tears the eyes of both of us. "In sickness and in health" takes on a whole new meaning when true sickness rears it's ugly head, doesn't it?

Cindy said...

Yes! She is worthy of love...even divine love. What an amazing concept for any of us to truly grasp. I continue to pray for your whole family. Love to you, C

Jessica said...

Hi Karen,

I'm so glad you guys are able to follow along. There’s been a lot to process and it’s fun to be able to share. Love you both!