Monday, March 2, 2009

Girl + Unpredictable Life = Chills

I’m not really a go-with-the-flow, role-with-the-punches kind of gal. Instead, I would really rather be in control, know what to expect, and have the universe unfold according to my comprehensive ten year plan.

Subbing at other library branches basically goes against my nature. The whole process, from trying to find the secret staff entrance to deciphering how the collection is arranged, is rather unsettling when you prefer mastery of your surroundings.

Despite the fact that putting myself in these situations gives me that I’m-so-nervous-I-might-pee-my-pants feeling, I think stepping out of my comfort zone 4-8 hours each week is a good idea. In fact, learning to deal with variability seems to be the main theme in my life since we left Colorado.

Obviously it’s taking some time for the message to sink in. And while habit is begging me to take detailed notes, instinct is just shaking its head because that’s the first lesson: life isn’t a thing to be's a thing to be lived.


tara said...

It certainly sounds like a year of bravery! I'm like you...and I admire how you're not avoiding the unknown.

Cindy said...

Wow! That is actually quite an amazing insight, and one with which I totally agree! I might actually embroider that on a pillow... :D Good for you in stepping out of your comfort zone - over and over this past year or so.

Brandi Krupp said...

You are amazing. And I can just picture you being nervous and giddy. However, you have the kind of personality that people just love to be around, so I know that whatever environment you find yourself in, you will shine.